*left hanging*

PS: Figured out a lot tonight about how I relate to girls
HR: It's pretty much a list of reasons the prospects are dire

PS: ranjogwalkdragged myself a little over 16 miles tonight. ran along the beach for a few miles, was beautiful, no sense of distance, just the stars and the waves and a tourist couple every now and then. I was just happy that I could keep moving for that long (about 4 hours, if you don't count the breaks for food and problem 4 of my calc homework (drew it in the sand, people looked at me like I was crazy. even after I explained why I didn't want them walking on it)).
AF: my feet are hurting in about 4 different ways. I was shivering a while ago, under a comforter, and it's not cold.
HR: PT in 3 hours
PS/HR: I'm currently medically disqualified, so I get to sit on an aluminum bench for an hour in shorts that dig into my ass. At least I won't have to try to run more.

UC: yep I was right

PS: One of my friends is analyzing one of my poems that I posted. Very entertaining and super super interesting...and yet she's missing a lot of stuff that I was afraid would be too obvious. This is becoming quite a learning experience...

UC: Wow I feel totally exhausted today. More sleep than yesterday but damn so exhausted.

PS: after that 16-mile run, had a good conversation with a close friend, finished my briefing due 0915 the next day, got two hours of sleep, woke up at 0650, and only nodded off a few times in my 0915 AFROTC class.
PS: boots finally in, can wear my ABUs now.
UC: dammit I'm still craving tacos. my sudden desire for tacos last night was a major factor in me jogging that far. but I never found that damned elusive taco bell....

UC: Got sick and threw up in the wee hours of this morning, and I'm still feeling pretty weak. Hopefully it's just another 24-hour virus...

UC: Still oww...

AF: Physics was a pretty bad idea.

That said, I do not regret my ill-conceived foray into it, because I really did gain a new appreciation for what I'm good at, and what I'm not.

PS: The Ubuntu 10.04 Beta is damn nice.

HHHHHHHR: Need to stop getting signals crossed between my brain and my hands. Should not have dropped left hand contents, key and ID card, into trash chute, in place of right hand contents, rice krispies treat wrapper. Especially now that the custodians are gone for the night. Tomorrow is going to be HELL...providing I can find it before they get the trash out. Can't believe no one other than the custodial staff has the keys to wherever the hell the chute goes...

1. Is your door locked?
2. If so, does your RA or whatever have a key to your room/is there a universal key that you could obtain?

If the answer to the first question is no, why are you worrying? If the answer to the first is yes and the second is no, then worry. If they're both yes, again, don't worry. I'm sure Cal has a system to give you a new ID card. You'll be fine haha, it'll just be inconvenient. Sooo many of my friends have drunkenly lost their keys and IDs before. It's not really a big deal.

Obviously I've already explained this to you, but for everyone else: At Cal our doors lock automatically; there's no way to have an unlocked door. So I'll just tape over the slot in the doorframe until I get the key/ID back. It's just annoying because it means I have to sign in at the security monitor all the time without an ID, as well as wait for people to open the front door/elevator/stairwell, because all those only work with a key. Thank god at least the bathroom doesn't require a key anymore.
And if I want a new key, they'll need to replace the lock on our door (again, my roomie lost his key on the way back from the gym about a week or two ago), and we both need new keys. I can get a new ID fairly easily, although I believe it may cost something, and I won't have my bus pass for the rest of the semester either...I'd really rather avoid all that hassle, hence my willingness to dig through a night's worth of trash at 8 in the morning.
EDIT: NOT DRUNK!

That's both hilarious and horrific all at once.

K, so basically I was super stressed out by a combo of school and work and this whole dating a girl for about 4 months and she was getting to be super clingy and all that and she was all like "heck yes let's get married" and I'm all like "hey do I get a say?" Also, whenever I was busy at work or out of town or whatever she would call and be all like "I need you here I'm just so sad and depressed and I feel sick and why can't you be here right now and hold me and make things better?"

Anyway, last night all of this came to a head when I had a fairly crappy day at work, which ended with me standing out by the dumpster, throwing out garbage bags full of broken beer bottles, covered in beer-water-liquid, fingers cut by the glass. And that made me pretty pissed off, so much so that I just showered and went to bed. Of course, she called oh like 38 times wondering why I wouldn't hang out with her, and eventually getting all passive aggressive.

So today after work she calls and asks if I am less pissed off, which i am, and I'm talking with her and suddenly I'm breaking up with her and she's crying and saying "we can't break up" and "I thought you liked me for me" and a whole lot of other stuff and now I'm pretty sure she hates me but on the plus side I'm eating food again which I really hadn't since like monday and my stress level is much lower...

Dude, that sounds like the least healthy relationship i've ever heard of since that one dude tuned some chick into a vampire then knocked her up and his rival the werewolf totally imprinted himself on the kid so he would be like its guardian.

but seriously.

based on what you posted in there, it sounds like it's time to either call it off or have a real discussion about how even though you like her, there is more to life than being with one person constantly.

Didn't you read this part?

It's for the best, Captaink, I'm sure.

Live life! Don't let life live you!

Either you're a girl, or you have a long-term girlfriend.
Or you've been very, VERY bored in your lifetime.
I'm assuming that's the only reason you know that that's the Twilight storyline...I'm also assuming that that is the actual Twilight storyline?

LOL/PS: my flaming homosexual and fairly liberal COM122 teacher assigned me to present the essay "The Case for Torture". This will be interesting.

As per Brendan's suggestion, some thoughts on this issue: http://j13shelby.blogspot.com/2010/02/im-t...ty-perfect.html

obviously.

UC: I've never tried shoes without shoe strings.

next time i'm in church please no photos.

Hey guys remember that.

Well prepare for

HR: My advisor is a moron, and the math class I dropped is required for graduation.
HRx2: So I need to overload one more semester.
HRx3: So, what's next year gonna include for me. I have to publish, because you can't graduate in my major without being published. I'll be working 10 hours at a legit analysis job next semester -- not as a 7 hour a week gun-for-hire transcriptionist like before, where it was easy. And, I mean, I'm a senior. So there is the whole task of getting a "pay the bills, start a career" sort of job. So on top of that I gotta take five classes one of those semesters, and these aren't pushover easy classes.
HRx4: What if I'm fighting depression when next year starts?

Basically uh

At least one semester of my senior year... may end up being worse than my junior year.

Guys.

smurf the world.

okay because i'm a scheduling wizard i have fixed my schedule mostly. still sucks way more than it did this time yesterday, but it is not impossible. my last class is no longer legit, it is weight training one semester and swing dancing the next. that still is kind of dumb but whatever. anyway so i figured that out but then realized i have no particular way to take a stats elective next semester because none of them are workable in my schedule with the classes i have to take (including, due to what has to be the stupidest oversight in the statistics department in years, the fact that they made the awesome statistical consulting class every senior takes/enjoys at the exact same time as our thesis advisor meetings).

so now I need to create a research proposal to make my own stats independent study. it needs to be entirely disparate from my thesis research since we can't double-dip. dunno what i'll research. but at least this one only needs to be research + departmental released paper, not research + needs to be published paper (though it will certainly be good practice for when i have to put together the real deal next spring)). okay. so my life isn't ruined. just harder. not ruined.

phew.

phewwww.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cf6D0syHPLU

[10:16] NikolaiBolkonsky: my advisor never made me eligible to enroll
[10:16] NikolaiBolkonsky: so
[10:16] NikolaiBolkonsky: while it's my registration window
[10:16] NikolaiBolkonsky: i cannot actually enroll into anything
[10:17] NikolaiBolkonsky: awesome
[10:17] NikolaiBolkonsky: and by awesome i mean
[10:17] NikolaiBolkonsky: smurf everything

also my last econ class is now on the waitlist, because i had forgotten that "oh yeah econ classes fill up literally two minutes into the first registration window." of course if i had woken up at 8:30 to register i would have gotten that dreadful surprise on even less sleep so uh the world can go to hell

You can always be like my friends and take the 9 year plan towards graduating from college.

VVVVVPS: YESSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!
Will never ever hate our custodial staff. Ever.

Found your things, I take it?

Yep. And on the plus side, I get to eat again! Tuna melt time after class...

PS: http://drop.io/9wlw8uw/asset/wales-mp3

ummm, that was god awful... jokes like that (self commentary on their absurdness) are pretty lame already, and that guy's delivery sucked.



Actually, I'm mostly mad that I had to listen to the whale impression on my stereo while it's cranked up.....

PS: I think I just got a good grade on an anatomy test.... Wish me (retroactive) luck

PS: The ballroom dance class I signed up for as PE credit is not 100% male.

You assumed it would be? Huh, I guess I would have been expecting (closer to) 100% female. Glad it worked out for you any how

I thought it might attract a lot of socially deprived males who would all assume it was 100% female. It actually appears to be evenly divided.

there's that invisible hand again, pushing *ahem* "resources" to their most productive uses...

WTF: so i'm looking at possible grad programs right and potential advisors and MINUTES AGO I BUMPED INTO MY TOP CHOICE RANDOMLY
HE IS NOT A PROFESSOR HERE, WHAT IS GOING ON

AHHHHHHHH


also a HR because I was shocked and consequently RIDICULOUSLY awkward talking to him.

PS: Forgot FlashForward was back, hence an afternoon on Hulu!

PS: 86% on the Anatomy test which is a B+ on his scale.
HR: The anatomy lab today has killed my will to live.

That show is terrible.

Yeah kinda but its interesting watching all the pieces come together/predicting upcoming moves

HR: SO OUT OF SHAPE OH NOES

I was in shape once...until I got to college!

Anyone got a they wanna trade for a ?

That should have gone in random thoughts. Oh well.

HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHR: more snow

if I did, I would, but this

is the only guitar I own, and while it's fun looking at VW themed, it's also a First Act, so a complete PoS