....?

He accidentally threw it into the trash instead of his fast food garbage.

Tomorrow he's gonna ask the janitorial staff if they can check it for him and find it.

...
I thought we were past this.
JK ACTUALLY LOLZ FOR REALS

AF: At that weird mental stage where I feel like everything's swirling around in my brain driving me insane, yet I'm perfectly conscious of it all which means that it's harmless, because I'm conscious of everything. All my writing is flashing through my head in an attempt to draw an idea for a poem. I've had the idea for a sort of concept album of poems, if you will, which is all well and good except that I know that if I start, halfway through I'll think it's self-gratuitous and stop. What I need is a topic for a resounding somewhat short poem that I could read to my English section, with just the right language, neither too verbose and stuck in the past nor too fractured and modern. This is not one of my areas of expertise. And this dual state of consciousness, this sense of everything flashing past me in my head at blinding speed and yet this perfect clarity of slow thoughts, this dual state in which the layers don't match up is very interesting, but really not very helpful at all.
It's been 41:30 since I last slept. I know that this current state could be a product of that, but I don't particularly care because at any second, I could snap back into a normal frame of mind and just be your usual college student after midnight early on a Thursday morning with nothing particular to do, and I would be absolutely fine. I could also go to sleep and push everything back to the morning. But I suppose I'm persisting in the hope that somewhere in the freeway of thoughts, something will push its way out and I will know what to write. This is doubtful; my best poem so far came out of nowhere, an idea on a normal Tuesday night or Wednesday morning, I don't quite remember anymore. The kind of thoughts that come out of this are the sort of psychological and conceptual morass that I just don't have the poetic ability to put into words, or at least not any coherent and non-self-gratuitous form. And they don't lend themselves well to trite rhyme and rhythm schemes.
This is by far the most experiential state of consciousness I've ever really been in. People don't need psychedelics for an introspective and odd experience; all we need to do is just think.

^that post is longer than some of the papers I've written.

And using "^" really doesn't work when your post ends up as the first post on the next page.....

*bzzt* nope sorry, all you need to do is be sleep deprived.

welcome to ADD
I go through almost every moment of life like this.

God bless adderall, because without it, I'm even worse.

So here's an interesting idea:
If I were to take a dose of Ritalin right now, would I be at my normal state of consciousness? I'm obviously not going to try, but it's something interesting to think about.

I probably need to get tested for ADD or something. Can't think straight half the time, which isn't helpful to say the least.


Part of me likes my wandering mind though.

don't know about ritalin, think that's more for physical hyperactivity, you'd probably need adderall

I'm thinking about going back on it, this semester it's gotten bad enough that it's detracting from my ability to learn.

Although to clarify, I think I know what you're talking about, with the ADD feeling...I can't say for sure I do, but I'm pretty sure how I feel isn't quite that.
It's like I can feel my mind working along two separate pathways, one blazing fast and one pedestrian, and I'm comprehending both, but I'm not sure if the slow pathway is an expanded version of the highway or its own pathway...this is sounding even weirder than I see it.
EDIT: And the Adderall I'm sure I could find, obviously. But it really wouldn't be any use. I'm probably going to sleep soon.

Too much... last day of classes

Actually, assuming you aren't actually ADHD/ADD, the adderall would just wake you up. Obviously with 50 some hours without sleep, you'll still be a bit loopy or out of it, but the adderall would definitely make you jittery and keep you from falling asleep.

Adderall+sleep deprivation= not fun.

"Too much..."

with "..." being a noun?

I wonder if you could make it into a verb?

"I ... the whole thing" ?

Possibly a noun, possibly too much last day of classes

But yeah, strange feeling.

Sorry, I need to take them to keep my youthful, boyish good looks. They would've been wasted on you anyway.

heh.

Reminds me of a short sorta horror story I once read. Goes something like this:



Yeah interesting story, I forgot some of it but it was extremely short, just not this short.

sounds like the kind of story that would get strained out into a 2 1/2 hour movie that is just too painful to watch.

UC: Headache like hell.
PS: SLEPT!

PS: New desktop wallpaper

UC: has never been this sick before, throwing up all day

VPS: Found my camera for the first time in at least 3 months. Missed the NCAA tourney, Pac-10 championship, and a whole lot of other stuff I could have used it for, but no matter!

PS/UC: I just realized that so long as I email him the stats assignments before midnight I should be alright in terms of getting them graded. This is good, because they are not done. Despite this, I am only going to be able to finish 2/3. Which I guess is better than 0/3, but still.

PS/HR: Finished that stupid-smurf Dan Brown book I need to write about for EOS. Dan Brown's existence as an author.

HRx2: Oh also uh pretty much left the "worst possible impression" on my boss today due to how smurfing frazzled I am by everything that's going on simultaneously right now. Way too much smurf to do jesus christ. At least I have the summer to work hard and change that impression for my boss tho. Also definitely sick now and can't stop for more than 5-6 hours of sleep, tops. Alternatively, I pull an all-nighter until I finish the smurf I need to finish and then just sleep through friday. Actually, smurf it, that's almost certainly the best idea right now. Still blows given the several consecutive <6 hour nights. And this terrible throat pain.

PS: After I finish this stats, that essay, and the weird-smurf EOS homework I've just got three finals and a huge project/presentation left to do. Also uh moving. And other smurf too, and three meetings and financial papers for UPB. ... waaaaaait this was a PS? Damnittttttt.

Oh smurf almost forgot. I got a ridiculously weird PS today.

PS: Because of my involvement in the Gothic Guardian, I can apply for a press pass to literally any Duke game, and I'd get to sit on the court with the ESPN photographers. There's a waitlist for the UNC game but holy crap. Also I can get passes for away games too, but I have to pay for travel so I'll only do that if I happen to be in the same place as an away game.

Gonna use this at least twice next year now that I know I can do it.

What the sh*t, seriously, what the sh*t.

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/worldnews/...l#ixzz0kXipS1p3

holy smurf sometimes I hate the world

UC: Yeah this always seems to happen.

Cannibalism? No that does not happen very often actually.

UC: So I was planning to go to the Cabin & Trail formal dance tonight until about 10 minutes ago, when I discovered that the dress pants I brought to Dartmouth this term are an old pair that are so tight I would suffocate if I went out in them...not to mention look incredibly dorky. Woo, fun Friday night ahead, I guess.

MORAL OF THE STORY LISTEN TO YOUR PARENTS OR YOU'LL DIE

And here I thought it was that if you're "drunk and hungry" don't bring your girlfriend over.



UC: Life is very not awesome in the last 7 or so hours, got in a huge fight with my gf. Ah, most of it is like because she's got a lot of the same issues I did last year, well still do. I dunno, I love her, and I mean that in more than a "she's pretty and stuff that shan't be mentioned" way. I just hope we get through this.


PS: Other than the fight the night with her was amazingly fun, saw Fiddler on the Roof (terribad in an awesome way) and went out for soup.


AF: I really just want to not fight with her for tomorrow, doesn't help that she's erm, sensitive atm.


Oh well.

ADT, this trend of bad lady-developments had better not spread to me.

Sadly it's just that time of the month.

heyo...

Thankfully, this bad-lady trend cannot spread where there's no ladies to be affected by it. I may be safe...although if all goes according to plan, I may not be in another month or so...

... if you're single and planning things a month in advance, you're doing it wrong.

gaaah stop calling me stop stop stop stop...

You should start using breakup cliche lines.

I'm in Berkeley. Others are in LA. Hence the month in advance.

HR: On the topic of relationships, I just realized that I'll be entering a long-distance one for three and a half months, after being with this guy for only a month and a half...

Let alone knowing him for like two months...



This may be difficult

Ah that makes sense then. Good luck dude.

PS: I can officially move into my apartment now.

UC: Too much work w/ finals and my last project to actually do that until wednesday. Lameee.

PS: Oh yeah I am returning as the UPB manager, that's pretty chill I guess.

Bad women "trend"

LOL

Oh, you youngsters.

PS: the travelogue I'm adding to my Mexico book is coming along quite nicely.

BTW: it'll be available online for a modest fee very soon.

UC: MY VOICE IS GONE. FML!!!

PS: Gonna have Indian food tonight!

Buffalo wings!

Chipotle! Again! Cause the dining halls are I guess trying to serve cheaper stuff/less appealing now that people are trying to use up their meal points!
But mostly, CHIPOTLE!!!
HR: One of my deca compadres chose Stanfurd. Over Cal. How the hell did this guy win nats??